Unfair ! Unfair ! Unfair !

Dear diary,
I held my head high up when i accepted this position in this new company. Although this job is nothing new to me, hoping to be given an extra or higher job responsibility is part of my dream to be accepted here. At least to be trusted with a simple management position is what i hope for. I don't ask for much , right? Rightttt....

Well, life can be unfair sometimes. (I used to say that ,right...haha...that's just my line).
This ex-colleague of mine , same age, same background but somehow she got promoted eventhough she cannot do any work. I know this because our ex-company's staff is complaining about her. She is the type that likes to tai-chi her work to other people. She is the type who can find 101 excuses and pushed her work to whoever is available to be her victim. But somehow, she got away with her attitude all the time. Reason being that she talks and talks her way and blabber in the meeting that people don't seem to notice...yet...
FYI, diary, I'm not the type who hates people easily...but somehow when it happens to me and she got away with it all the time makes me hate to see her ever again. Even to bump into her in the office is a pain in the ass. She is a pain in the ass. Recently, she blabber to me saying that she's the SME (subject matter expert) in her field that companies are looking up for her to do consultation work...plthhhh...God forbid this..!!! How I wish i can put my tongue in front of her there and then when she was talking...haha...not yet but like I told you, how i wish...

Well, I take a step back and re-examine myself..
Perhaps, I have to form a new me to be able to be trusted with a higher post after this.
Part of the fault is mine...I guess...I noted it here, just for my future reference:

1) not enough experience (perhaps i'll try to get cert on my own after this)
2) i talk rubbish (hmm..maybe sometimes...but hey! not that often)
3)likes to joke too much (i can be joker sometimes ..i hate stiff situation)
4) or ,could it be I take things too serious when people are joking? (hmmmm.....)
5) am i just too cute to be on management side?( this has crossed my mind too...not trying to be snobbish, but people tend to say that to me before...)

Whatever the reason is, I'll improve myself in whatever way I can and prove that somehow they hired a better person in me!! Than trusting somebody else who can only talk!!