Sawang story

Dear diary,
Quite a while I haven't write anything here. Been 'bersawang' a bit, no?
Today,I feel a bit empty inside when I came across a fotopage of my friend who is now staying in Japan. The blog was so interesting with the places that he went, views that was so mesmerizing and pictures that he took. All this while,it has always been me that is fascinated and awestruck by Japanese..Japanese language/books, japanese food,japanese culture..but till today, no rezeki to step foot in that country.. However, in spite of this emptiness, I'm thankful that I have everything that is around me now.

Next story, my hubby doesn't get his salary for quite sometime now, I believe I'm not as bad as some of his officemate's wives who doesn't talk at all to their hubby. I understand how they feel. If you have become the sole breadwinner, I know how upset it is to be in that condition especially when in wife's shoes. Frankly speaking, I don't mind being there and helping a little bit on financial part but when my hubby keep doing work for his beloved 'office' day and night but not being paid a single cent ...that's what make me boil with rage!!!!!

How can he keeps doing office work at home when he can do our Countryside business that will generate money ?? How come he never think of alternative way to generate money instead of solely depending on the company that don't pay his salary?Night is the time he should do other stuff or find part time things to make money. If work harder on this home business of ours, I can bet at least buying diapers and milk for our child is not a problem. Talking about this...grrr...I'm fuming now...astaghfirullah.....