Keep my heart affixed to a decision..

Dear diary,
Been reading 'things to consider before you quit your job' frequently. And this site has been offering me a good insight on what lies on the other side of the grass..is it greener than what I'm thinking of..
Right now, I'm making a list of 10 things that make it compelling me to quit and 10 things I have on my current job that I might not have on my next one.

Keje susah, Tak keje pun susah...

Dear diary,
aku nk berenti keje...aku nk dok ghumah jeeee...bagilah aku berenti keje..takde mood langsung nk dtg keje.
tiap2 pagi rasa cam ade batu besar hempap hati & jantung utk bangun bersiap.
nape niiii...ati mmg dah separuh je nk stay sini.
I want 2 do my own business..when can I have the courage to start it???when? when?when will i stop worrying abt the uncertainty and unpredictable risk??
sigh...i wanna get out of this messy mind..just let me be free to do things on my own..