hey..i have somebody reading my blog...at last...

dear diary,
shhh...somebody might be reading this after i post this entry...but hey..by all means..if somebody stumbled on this blog, do drop a line or two.it motivates me to write and rambles more in here. tq in advance..
oh yeah..today, my friend emailed me this link http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/.
Cool stuff..i would say it's 98% accurate.Here is my result for today (almost to what i feel this morning when i woke up )

"Enough is enough - and you feel that you've had enough for a while. You don't need any more battles. You just would like to be able to shout 'stop' and experience a little peace and calm - even if it be only for a little while. This doesn't mean that you need to cut yourself off from the rest of the world - it just means that you are seeking some respite, some physical or emotional relaxation that could release some of the tension and possibly reduce the internal conflict.
At this time you 'need to be needed' and again you 'need to need'. You have had this feeling for some time now and you are looking for someone who could share a close bond in an atmosphere of shared intimacy. You have the belief that with the right person you could conquer the world.
At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.
You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.
You need to be needed and would like a situation where you will no longer be subjected to pressures and demands from those about you. There is no harm in 'dreaming' but it is you - and only you - that can be able to realize those dreams and to turn them into reality."

i'm being watched..

Dear diary,
being a new apprentice can be tiresome, cumbersome and other some..some stuff.
all actions are being scrutinized and criticized. recently, this busybody colleague of mine approached me and tried telling me "for my best interest" that i should stop chatting on YM.
yeah right...here i am working my ass to finish all the tenders and assignments given, and having a liiiittle bit of chat break with my ol' friends... and she complained. that big mouth of hers...erghhh..i hate that big mouth..
as for her, i noticed since the "big jerk" boss quit his job about a week ago, she becomes sooo relaxed and i dun see her do a single thing..i doubt she's doing any job especially her place is hidden from people walking.trying to act busy but nothing..trying to be an angel in the office la tu..give advice here, critic there, this is good, this is bad..
Moral of the story today:- before u comment on others, pls... take a good look at yourself first!

cutie

fickle minded

Dear diary,
i just dun understand.this officemate of mine she got a fickle mind. she can be so nice and friendly at one time,
but another time she can be errghhhh...so snobbish..!!!
say, when she started the conversation she is so friendly and of course i have to
reply back in kindness and good naturedly..
but when i want to start having a small talk by the pantry for example, she just
brush me off without even a smile or look at my face.
does she has sick mind???? get real...c'mon!! i dun come here to suck up at you, you b**ch!!
i'm just here to have decent working environment where all of us can work in harmony together.
can't you just get that simple statement in your bloody empty mind?

HR..again n again...

Dear diary,
i wonder why izit i always have problems with HR people..it's not that i look for trouble with them.i even tried to avoid them..but still they are looking for my faults.
i tried to low down my head, bury myself in my work,learn all da new stuff as fast as possible...but they are alwiz snooping around me looking for every possible default that i'm making..goshh...why????????????????????????????????????????????