Trial of Being an Entrepreneuer

Kata Chef Li, antara kemungkinan yang bakal dihadapi jika anda memilih untuk menjadi usahawan jalanan ialah:-
1-Perlu komitmen 100%, lupakan siapa anda atau personaliti anda sebelum ini.
2-Cemuhan daripada kawan, saudara, keluarga yang tidak memahami tindakan anda.
*3-Sesekali anda dilanda kekesalan.
*4-Anda merasa tidak sabar, sensitif dan mudah jengkel.
5-Apa yang dirancang tidak menjadi.
6-Strategi yang diatur tidak mendatangkan hasil.
7-Semakin lama semakin kelam, kejayaan masih jauh seperti sebuah fatamorgana.
8-Kejayaan dirasakan masih lambat dan terlalu jauh.
*9-Merasa sangat letih dan tidak ada upaya lagi.
10-Anda mulai rasa benci kepada tempat berniaga dan barang-barang yang kena mengena dengan perniagaan anda.

Jika semua atau sebahagian dari fenomena ini berlaku, JANGAN BERHENTI tetapi BERCUTILAH. Buat analisa atau 'review' ke atas bisnes anda. Kaji kelemahan dan kekurangan. Pergi berkursus, ceramah motivasi atau baca buku motivasi. Cari kawan-kawan yang positif, makanlah dengan berselera dan ceriakan hati anda. Mulakan kembali perniagaan insyaAllah kemungkinan yang seterusnya akan menggembirakan hati anda.

recipe that I think I want to share and sell someday

Dear diary,
some day if I'm given a chance to sell at any pasar malam/ expo, I'd love to try and sell these drinks.
1)Soda Gumbira
Combine syrup, condensed milk ,ice cream soda, crushed ice
2)Coconut shake
Blend isi coconut with coconut water and add some condensed milk plus crushed ice.

Hmmmm...yummyyyy....

Independent

Dear diary,
last nite I had some bleeding..coming to 4 months preggie can be little harder now.
Apparently, when i told my hubby this, he sounds like this is nothing, small matter and trying to act like mr.cool.I was appaled by his action, didn't he know that this can be a bad sign? worst case i can get miscarriage, nauzubillah...but no, he tried to act like nothing-can-be-bigger-than-my-office-problem.I'm pissed off, i really do this time.Once he told me to go n check pregnancy on my own n indirectly saying "oh try to be more independent and dun act too wifey kinda thing"..I guess this is da time.
Since last nite, no doctor/gynae would attend to me, so today I've decided to go on my own to Ampang Puteri/poliklinik near here.
If he decides that getting involved with the wife's check up is too much or like he was forced to do it, I guess he hasn't seen me being independent. I've been independent for 28 yeears of my life before I got married to him, so if he wants me to be independent again..heyyy...a piece of cake!! You think I cannot do it meh? Foolish of me to think of being manja-manja with the only hubby that I have but hey sometimes things dun go as we hope, rite? Foolish of him if he thinks that I can't be independent.

Trying my hands to Google Adsense

Dear diary,
Life is really tough...at least for me..lately.
Today, decided to try and setup my own google Adsense..mana le tau kot2 betul2 boleh dpt duit...

We see things differently...

Dear diary,
Little nitty gritty things can become big stuff if we dun understand the concept of individual differences.How a person see things might differ from another person. As human being living in a society ,accepting queerness and absurd idea in the first place can become bearable after we take a deep breath and strengthen the antenna of our brain .IT's easier said than done, I know that for sure but this is part and parcel of us being human being and living in a society. Unless one prefer to become a person living in a deep jungle alone and staying with wild animals, well, that is another story..but somehow, living in wilderness also requires a bit of common sense and understanding, for we intrude the habitat of the wild animals, either intentionally or not, one can become their free dinner..
For our part, no matter how much we hate the new things being shoved to us, how you deal with yourself internally is first and foremost important. I, for one couldn't take changes so sudden.As for me,usually what I do is to make jokes when the situation becomes too stiff or I can sense that somehow it will bring to fight or more disastrous situation.
Later, when alone, I'll think of how good/bad the idea is, what are the consequences if changes been made to the norm way..after a while, our body will calm the mind and eventually a good decision is made. The conclusion doesn't necessarily be we follow the changes earlier but how do we face the actual situation or maybe if it's for betterment of something, changes on our part is necessary.

Laman Seni Putrajaya 23/5 - 25/5

Dear diary,
Dpt invitation from Ptrjy Holding to open booth for Laman Seni Putrajaya again this weekend. Hesitated at the beginning but after talking to my broad-minded dad, I've changed my mind.
If this is the road that I chose, I have to face the hardship, turbulance and mind-blogging times. Tolak tepi rasa malas, tolak tepi rasa bosan. Usaha kena lebih dari org yg makan gaji. Usaha jgn berenti, jgn sekali2 separuh jalan. Mesti buat sesuatu utk biz ni SETIAP HARI. teruskan momentum dan teruskan semangat yg sedang ada.Jangan biarkan ia mati...Do something to improve da biz everyday!!!
InsyaAllah, dgn doa+usaha+tawakal ni aku akan capai sesuatu kejayaan yg besar suatu ari nanti..

A New Beginning..

Dear diary,
Sitting at home on my first day working from home.Targets written : on business and at home.
Just need time to rearrange my day schedule and menatality of now working on my own which means harder than before..
God, pls give me the strength and the good attitude to face this stage of life..insyaAllah...

Keep my heart affixed to a decision..

Dear diary,
Been reading 'things to consider before you quit your job' frequently. And this site has been offering me a good insight on what lies on the other side of the grass..is it greener than what I'm thinking of..
Right now, I'm making a list of 10 things that make it compelling me to quit and 10 things I have on my current job that I might not have on my next one.

Keje susah, Tak keje pun susah...

Dear diary,
aku nk berenti keje...aku nk dok ghumah jeeee...bagilah aku berenti keje..takde mood langsung nk dtg keje.
tiap2 pagi rasa cam ade batu besar hempap hati & jantung utk bangun bersiap.
nape niiii...ati mmg dah separuh je nk stay sini.
I want 2 do my own business..when can I have the courage to start it???when? when?when will i stop worrying abt the uncertainty and unpredictable risk??
sigh...i wanna get out of this messy mind..just let me be free to do things on my own..

Goshhh....

Dear diary,
Last Tuesday & Wednesday, i was called to give a training on MS Power Point for MPSJ. For first day, I noticed that some of the trainees were in beginner level,so I plan 2 do beginner+intermediate on 1st day while advance level on 2nd day. Unfortunately, ther revoke the offer after the 1st day without even tried to look at da my way ahead. well, i guess this is not my rezeki...never mind...InsyaAllah, God willing there will be another offer, another door of opporunity open for me...

Public Mutual Agent

Dear diary,
Today i take 1/2 day leave, reason being to start my first step in journey to become a public mutual agent.
Quite easy I must say especially when doing with cash. Next, I would try to take my EPF money and invest here too.

I.P.O.H

Dear diary,
As a corporate trainer,work brings me to a lot of places. Johor,Terengganu, Penang, and also Brunei Darussalam. Even right now, I'm writing from my hotel room in Ipoh,Perak.
The hardest part in this work right now is being away from my baby Qistina...this particular project requires me to be here for 5 days.Counting days to come back to my precious baby + my hubby.
Aiyahh..mengantuklah..malas nk tulis dah..next time!

Stab in the back

Dear diary,
It is painful to be stab on the back especially by those you think are friends. It is even more painful when you find out how naive a friend can be when being persuaded to stab us by outsiders...I had an x-colleague, then became colleague, then became x-colleague again..not sure how many times this circle is...whom i tot can be assume as a friend, but apaarently not.
Well, like people used to say..world is small place, news come around...the gossip, the bad things you said behind -> reaches the person ->painful process -> denial that it can't be this person who spread the bad vibes ->find out it's true ->tried defending oneself -> grew tired of this world & people...
"Ya Allah, balaslah perbuatan jahat mereka ke atas ku. Pelihara dan lindungilah aku dari perbuatan jahat mereka yg jelas mahupun terselindung"

Dear diary,
When a person grows old, they build a certain wall between them called "cynical'. If life throws something, they look at it in a cynical way.."Is this true or not","can this person beside me have ulterior motive being good with me", "this can't be happening, too good to be true" sorta thing..
These sway of minds happen when we least expected it.

I wish this doesn't happen to me..but it hounds my mind lately..

I have been spending most of my time, quietly by myself, thinking about all of the things that happen around me. I know my hubby noticed it, but somehow I couldn't bring myself to talk or discuss with him about this issue. I thought of how I've been doing for the past 30 years of my life, have i contributed something to the lives of people around me or am i ruining them as well as myself? Have my tinyself contributed anything to the ummah / community? Am I doing good in any field or anything that I touch? Am I good enough for everybody?

I can't help but tink where am I now or in a few years or probably 20-30 years time. Although my instinct is telling me, I might not live that long, so my mind bring me back to this question "have I developed a base where my pahala will continue once I leave this beautiful place Allah created?" Is my pahala enuf to cover all my sins that I've done to myself or people around me or the mighty God?""Have I taught my baby completely to doa for me once I die?"

So, if by any chance, my hubby is reading this, by any chance...pls dun get me wrong...The way I behave lately have nothing to do with you..You are a great husband but the proble is ..ME!!