frustration...jobless...feel unwanted and useless

Dear diary,
i'm not going to my shop today.this morning i called my x-colleague asking his favor to offer me a job. I'm jobless...again...can u believe that? I was hoping that i could get a good recommendation from him since he's the sales director there.maybe i could learn a thing or two about telecommunication.A totally new industry for me although related to IT.

That is why i'm right in front of my pc to do some research about this company and it's new technology. Something about NGN (New Generation NEtworks)...what the hell is that? I'm not too sure either, that's why i'm reading on the white paper and network infrastructure....but damn it, so hard to get any info..i guess it's becoz the tech is still new and not much discoveries been made, especially in Malaysia.

cross fingers..hope everything turn out so well, that he offered me job right away.isnt that wonderful if it truly happened?i guess it's only in my mind or fantasy world...guess i have to work harder and do more research so i dont err...errr while talking to him later.

stomach ache

Dear diary,
Happy New Year!!
I'm supposed to be in my shop right now...but i have a bad stomachache, and i don't have the mood to go today...